My life as it is now would not be if it were not for several people in my life.
Samantha, words cannot describe the gratitude and live I have for you. I can actually say I would not have made it without you. You were there for me when EVERYONE else turned their back on me. There will always be a very special and large chunk of my heart devoted for you, you are a true friend, no question. I love you sis. Chelsi, you have never given me any reason to be even the slightest bit mad. You helped me through many tough times, and for that I owe you so much. I love you girl. Adele, WOW, gurl, we have been there, done that! Our friendship has definitely been one of a kind. Ups and downs, and that one time I was ready to kill you, and we came out of it. You are true. love ya. Dulsey...I don't know where to start. We loved each other, hated each other, you called me a crazy lesbian and wanted to kill me, but hey, we ended up like sisters. However, now it's different, but it's ok. We know we are here for each other if we need, and thats all that matters when it comes down to it. lulas. Jenn, you are yourself, and that is enough. By having you as a friend, I further developed a release for my pain through words, and you helped me see the darkness I was in, you were my light. You have had such a huge impact on my life, and you have changed it dramatically, and for that I owe you everything.
I know I missed some people, but know that I love all of my friends, very much.
We all grow up so fast. It seems like yesterday I was making mudpies and playing UNO. Now I'm in college, on my way to developing a life. What's up with that? People you grew up with stop calling. You don't care who Jill slept with, or who won homecoming Queen. You begin to prepare for a life away from home. By instinct you push forward. Your parents are your friends again. For a small moment in time, you forget what's like to sleep late. Your paychecks are spent on bills, and not at the mall. And you don't have time to paint your toes. Life slaps you hard, and I'm still tingling.
Who I'd like to meet:
Month One!
Mommy, I am only 8 inches long, but i have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. Every time i hear it, I wave my arms and legs. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby.
Month Two!
Mommy, today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me, you could definitely tell that i am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here.
Month Three!
You know what Mommy, I'm a girl! I hope that makes you happy! I always want you to be happy! I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too, and I cry with you even though you can't hear me.
Month Four!
Mommy, my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine, but i will have lots of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes, and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it too.
Month Five!
You went to the doctor today. Mommy, he lied to you. He said that I'm not a baby. I am a baby, your baby. I think and feel. Mommy, what's an abortion?
Month Six!
I can hear the doctor again. I dont like him. He seems cold and heartless. Something is intruding my home. The doctor called it a needle. Mommy what is it? It burns! Please make him stop! I can't get away from it. Mommy!! HELP me!!
Month Seven!
Mommy, I am okay. I am in Jesus's arms. He is holding me! He told me about abortion. Why didn't you want me, Mommy?
Every abortion is just....
One more heart that was stopped. Two more eyes that will never see... Two more hands that will never touch... Two more legs that will never run. One more mouth that will never speak.