EnsurdFrndship
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Capt. of a cont. growing new & hot outreach minis.
Male
30 years old
GAITHERSBURG, MARYLAND
United States
Last Login: 6/21/2007
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EnsurdFrndship's Interests
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| General | Relating to people, Showing humor, Computer Programming, Computer Graphics, Web design, Playing the keyboard, writing, english, math, singing in choir, knitting, arts and crafts and photography. | | Music | I enjoy making CDs of music of all different kinds from my keyboard. Some are Country (as I change my voice on WaveStudio to sound like I'm yodeling) and others range from Christian Rap to Techno versions of Beethoven and Bach. | | Heroes | My family of friends, my pastor and God all working together to destroy the selfish goals that were once in my life (to live in a house of my own near many beautiful beaches). My heros were really the ones who turned my selfish goals into dreams that would help others, made these dreams become a reality and showed me that my joy didn't come from what I drove, what job I worked or who I used to date. Because of the unfortunate economical crash in the Computer Industries, I am now actively looking for a Computer Programming job with very little money but am as happy as can be knowing that no matter what may happen in life, nothing can destroy all the huge acheivements that my friends and I helped accomplish for an entire community in Jesus' name that not even billionaires could buy with their own money. |
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EnsurdFrndship's Details
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| Status: | Single | | Orientation: | Straight | | Hometown: | Silverspring | | Religion: | Christian - other | | Zodiac Sign: | Sagittarius | | Smoke / Drink: | No / No | | Children: | Someday | | Education: | College graduate |
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EnsurdFrndship's Schools
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Montgomery College
Rockville,Maryland
Graduated: 2006
Student status: Alumni
Degree: Associate's Degree
Major: Computer Programming/Web Development
Minor: Computer Graphics
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About me:
Note: If you don't have much time and you're only interested in a humorous Community Outreach Ministry (non religious) program that I am starting, please read the bottom paragraph just before where it says, "Who I'd like to meet."
INTRODUCTION AND SCHOOL BACKGROUND
Hello everyone, My name is Michael. I am a 27 year old college Graduate in both Computer Graphics and Software Development. My interests are (first) having fellowship and being there for my friends, making music, arts and crafts, achieving big goals that seem reasonably impossible through believing in myself and in others, painting pictures, writing software programs and working on electronics. I also have my third technical cerftificate in Electronics from an electronic trade school I went to back in 1997, in which I am trying to get a job in either Electronics or Software and Web development.
WHAT I LEARNED IN SCHOOL
While going to school, I learned that what matters most in life is not how many metals of honor you receive, what goals you've accomplished, how many people you've dated and watched walk out of your life for no reason without a single trace, how much fun you've had, what your salary was or how many certificates that hung on your wall. What is going to matter the most in the very end is how much you were able to enjoy taking the time to care for other people and feel good about watching a life get spared and possibly life afterwords. I'm sure my final words in life (whatever they may be) will not be that I wished I had spent more time at work and less time with friends, just so I could have made more money when I was much younger. I have many goals in life that I set for myself and for others, and am excited about all the success stories I wish to share and will continue to see. Some of my goals are huge goals while others are small. Weather others decide to follow these goals or not, I will still push myself to follow them with or without the help of others. It seemed that when my goals were no longer selfish goals, but goals that could reach out to an entire community, I watched the impossible get accomplished with little or no money that even millionaires couldn't get done in large groups. I don't want to write a book, so I'll end this chapter right here and will gladly share with anyone my success stories which have even brought healing and inspiration to many people.
MY GOAL IN LIFE
My biggest goal right now is to reach out to a community of people my age who've faced hurt issues (weather it be abuse or neglect) and tell them that they are not the only ones going through these issues and even show them that they CAN recover with somebody else who's been through something similar if they just give it a try. I would sometimes try to pair these 2 people together (men with men, women with women). I discovered something amazingly interesting as I began to continually persue this goal... within this discovery, there was a time I almost became Athiest, and not that I am into talking religion or anyting about spiritual stuff all the time, but I once did a study on the people I've talked to in the past and discovered that about 90% of the people who enchant, continually drink, pray to false Gods or continually practice witchcraft (which is also a growing practice in my area) 90% of them (which are not 'bad' people as some people like to assume) are recovering from something and don't even yet know that there is hope, that they can recover and they often feel that life is hopeless. They are not bad people. They are just turning toward a bad source for an answer and refuge. 90% of them also can't believe that somebody out there like myself completely knows and understands what they are going through, which triggers some of their behaviors. I once felt just as hopeless as they did because I knew I needed some kind of connection but wasn't getting it (which I will talk about later).
My goal is to specially help those who say, "I'm tired of getting hurt every time I drink alco***." and show these people a concert-like place that a group of friends my age helped manage weekly. I don't wish to brag, so I won't mention any of our success stories in particular on here or how I received certain metals for accomplishing certain achievements. All that isn't going to matter in the very end. All I am willing to say is that my friends and I are constantly trying to set example after example by showing several people who seek comfort and healing that they don't have to test and see who can drink the most 6 packs of beer without passing out or dress a certain way before they can ever recover and look cool in front of the wrong people for all the wrong reasons. People who go to the building I am currently volunteering at have a wonderful time there, and at the same time they don't have to look or dress a certain way in order to find love and acceptance by the right people for all the right reasons. The best way I can describe the feeling of being there is that we feel a special kind of bonding, a special kind of growing unity (separate from places where you have to be the best dancer and look a certain way in order to find that fake conditional love from others). We feel separated from that kind of love and more like a growing family. Because of my friends all working together proficiently to help others find recovery and become part of this huge family of friends, I am already feeling pretty happy and content with my life and with myself as I watch the success of our establishments spread across many cities. I may not have a girlfriend (not that I don't want one), but there is still a great calmness and peace in my life with the amount of friends that are currently working with me to keep this group growing. Not even people in Hollywood and on TV can find the unity that we have, and we are still growing even today. In fact, I believe the spreading of this ministry (not a religious ministry) can be scattered all across the United States and the world even in time, and we will outgrow all the fake answers that were given to several people by those who either were selfish or just didn't know any better. As a result of the rapid spreading of friends, I no longer use the internet anymore to try and rush myself into anything that would cause heartache or persue something I know I should not be persuing since I know (not being dramatic) that all my past attempted relationships and friendships with people online have somehow somewhat failed. Whenever I go online from now on, all I expect to do is to hopefully talk someone into not hurting themselves and possibly help them see their true inner value and keep the friendship going as long as I hear from them. I am willing to do this and risk being misunderstood for it since there are people nowadays who aren't so ashamed to talk people into drinking and getting themselves hurt, and have become successful at that.
MY STRUGGLE WITH THIS GOAL
At the same time, I am also struggling with the Government of the County that I reside in who only care about gaining property taxes by lying to the owners of these several places franchized all over the County that I reside in. Many of these places decide to call themselves a Christian organization in order to legally claim themselves to have the right to be tax exempt (which means we don't have to pay perperty taxes if we consider ourselves a church). If we called ourselves a dance club, we would have to pay taxes. One day, the County Government decided to make a deal with the owners of these places by making promises to them that if they sold their property they would get a much bigger piece of land to build on. After many of us sold our buildings, the County went back on their word and meanwhile had residential homes built on that land so that the residents would have to pay taxes to the County per house. That also meant some people didn't have a place of acceptance to go to anymore, so whenever the feeling of emptiness kicked back in their lives, they would go back to the very place that my friends and I had just brought them out of, would drink their lives away again and the tax money would also go to the County Government. It seemed like the County cared more about making tax money off residents than they cared about the health and well being of their fellow citizens.
WHAT I BELIEVE AND DON'T BELIEVE
I am not a religious person and want absolutely nothing to do with religion. I don't wish to get into any details as to why I choose not to be religious. Some involved past childhood abuse issues, which I am now trying to help others recover from as well as myself instead of doing absolutely nothing about it and constantly feeling sorry for myself. I am not into the whole drama thing but can understand others who are (only to a certain extreme) and can feel sympathy for others. Because of the name of the business that I regularly attend that we had to pick (for tax exempt reasons), and what me and my friends stand for (Christianity, which should really be a 'relationship' and not a religion that excludes Muslims, Jews, Atrhiests, etc., which is a religion), many people today deceivingly confuse us as people who are out to judge others telling others how to live their lives, and because many people who called themselves Christians did in fact judge others, excluded people from other religions and even commited mur***, some people think that this is what we're all about but I have news for these people, I may not be religious, but even I can speak up and say that the people who did those kind of things were never Christian to begin with, so instead of me not hanging around any people who call themselves Christians (like I used to), I only decide not to hang around people who call themselves Christian, but can't wait to find something condemningly negitive to say about someone else and can't act anything like whoever the bible says Jesus is (only his so called gentle side though). I will hang around people who are encouraging or at least try to be and know how to use good judgement when they convict. Also, if I hadn't fully understood why my friends call themselves Christian (for their tax exempt purposes) while I was on my way to being an Athiest and learned from them about what Christianity really was, as well as they learned from me a few things, and if it weren't for the team effort and all the excitement we receive from working together as a team to help other people find peace in their life and then join us, I probably wouldn't be spending any of my spare time with my friends right now and probably would be Athiest. It took the things that I personally witnessed for myself to make me want to change exactly what it was I didn't believe in, and to start this growing process of what could be a world recovery depending on how serious we are about spreading the word about this group. Amazing things started happening when more people started coming in to our building. A group of friends helped a friend of mine stop drinking so that she could take care of her 11 year old daughter. She no longer felt the need to drink anymore. It was as if the struggle wasn't there in her life anymore. I also kind of found it hard to believe at first, but seeing is believing and I can't argue with what I saw.
AN AMAZING STORY
One day, an elderly friend of mine had a lump on her neck. I later found out her doctor said she needed to have it surgically removed because it was cancer. She decided to visit me and my friends one day at this organization we were constantly working hard to keep functioning and circulating. We figured that since we had to call ourselves Christian, we might as well give prayer a try instead of not being who we really say we are (like many others who say they're Christian and turn so many people away from eachother because the love isn't there). I have news for people who's father told them they loved them and then abused them or neglected them. It still doesn't change who God is and His love for us. Sometimes a person with an abusive father might think that God (our father) is the same way and that Christianity is all about abusing others and being abused. The way our father acted towards us shouldn't change our desire to be loved in the right way by others and by the very one who made our 5 senses so obvious as if it were on purpose (whoever that might be). Therefore, I would even hang around someone who says he is Athiest, but knows how to be kind to others more than I would a person who says he's Christian but has no love. Anyhow, one day (out of curiousity) my friends and I came across a random scripture. I forget exactly where it was but it said "In everything you do, do it all in my name." At the time, I really wasn't serious about getting deeper into reading (as to read a whole chapter) so I just picked random things to read. I assumed the scripture was referring to Jesus and later discovered it was. When I gave prayer a try, I didn't feel anything was going to happen if I prayed and felt a little foolish at first, so I just routinely said a short prayer for my elderly friend only because she asked me to pray in the name of Jesus that her lump would disappear. Next week, her lump was gone! The doctors couldn't find any cancer and she didn't need any surgery. That was when I discovered that it is because of a relationship as to why many miracles happen and not because of a religion. This was the first miracle I witnessed. Because I was raised in a Catholic church all my life in a place that had strict rules and not much love (like they talked so much about during their masses), I hadn't seen my first miracle in 21 years. I felt like the very one who gave me all my 5 senses making it so obvious that we didn't just happen by accident showed me and my friends that we were put here on earth to serve a purpose to convey to others that church isn't supposed to be about silence, rituals and listening to organ music for an hour. I don't even blame some of my friends for not wanting to come to a building 1 hour per week to a festival of organ music. It shouldn't be like a funeral. It should be like a concert and a place for young people to fwllowship, sing, dance and get excited, shake hands and find their joy. That was when I finally realized that my friends and I weren't just some kind of ordinary dance club that we wanted to be but we really were a church, and the County Government, who had worked against us all that time even helped us realize that and what our calling was. We are more than just a free concert or bar and had much better things to offer people.
FINAL OUTCOME AND WHAT I LEARNED FROM MY GOAL
It seemed like no matter what my friends and I were telling the County Government about how we've helped even drug addicts and women who wanted to committ suicide piercing, dying and tatooing every place you can think of, off streets to find their hope and that now we have no place to do that anymore because we sold our land, the County was still uninterested in what we had to say. Afterwords came Hurricane Katrina and a good friend of mine and pastor took a great deal of Hurricane Kartina victims who got off an airplane in Washington DC and invited them to come stay in his mansion until the victims could go back to New Orleans again. Fox 5 found out about it and did an interview with him. After I boldly told the County that if they wouldn't let my friends and I continue to reach out to the community of hurting people, my pastor (through his newly established good reputation with Fox 5) would put alot of political pressure on the councilmen of the County causing angry residents to move out of the County in order to work because the County will no longer be the 2nd most richest County in the U.S. through the help of Chris Van Hollen who makes that possible. Eventually Chris Van Hollen would find out what the County did and would no longet fund them. They told me not to approach this matter at a social level, but to take it at a legal level and get an attorney. I told them it shouldn't have to go that far considering the fact that County is facing enough extortion for destroying the churches and by law, they are not allowed to deny the community the right to have a church. I even told them what section of the law book it was from and felt like somebody or something was just using my voice working through me. It is something I don't feel I should give myself credit for. Of corse, the County came up with legal loopholes around everything I had said, but they are letting us build as long as they are forced to let us. It seems like somebody or something really is obviously keeping us successful and constantly blessing what we do. Every day, we pray more and more, and witness more amazing events happen just like the one I am typing. In the end, I realized that it wasn't me that caused all this but through the help and blessings of Jesus Christ.
EXTRA COMMUNITY OUTREACH MINISTRIES I'VE STARTED
I wanted the title of this page to be, "Captain of a continual growing new and hot outreach ministry." but the title was too long (of course). As you can probably tell by now, I love to write. The, "I care." ministry is a ministry that is not religious and is continually attracting many young people into a place that is of love, relationship and the acceptance that they could never find in bars, dance clubs or even in Hollywood. I call it the, "I care" ministry. The youth pastor at my church (Pastor Glass) and his wife (Sister Glass) had well chosen last names perfect for this ministry, so I tried to put the "Glasses" in charge of the "I care." ministry so many young people can "see" where there is a place filled with love. They said, "You started it, now you keep it going." We are a continually growing group of young individuals who relieve each other's problems, hurts, hangups and abuse issues with a family of friends instead of driving home drunk. We are all about relationship instead of religion (if you had not yet already read above). I later earned my fisherman's hat as a reward for the growth of the ministry and later realized why I was given the hat, "... because we were called to be fishers of men." I often joke and laugh at the hat I was given because it looks just like a Captain's hat. I wear a patch that says "I care." on my black military jacket which goes well with the hat. I see a few Captains every now and then who've just got out of the military and some love to flirt, while others talk about their strong muscles, training and what they did to win a war, which there is nothing wrong about. Some laugh at my often said line. My line is, "Many Captains say, I. I.,,,, I say, I care." because we can win a war against terrorism and still have other things in America that destroy lives like depression, and fighting against depression is a war in itself in which only you can win. Thank you for reading this lengthy description.
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Who I'd like to meet:
I would like to meet people who are able to know and completely understand what a true friendship really is and can be willing to accept what they are really getting themselves involved in when they ask for a friendship and can completely understand exactly what it is they're asking for.
In life, I learned that not all people who say they're your friends are really out to be your friends any more than how not all people who ask for a friend are really asking for someone who can listen to them, be sensitive towards them, help protect them nad keep them from trouble, say, "How are you doing?" every once in a while, speak the truth and can continually stay in touch. I would like to meet someone who also knows that not everyone who speaks the truth to them is their enemy no more than a person who lies to them is their friend.
I would also like to meet someone who can willingly open up to me and not just assume that me being a guy means that I can't relate to women or be mature about anything that is being said since all guys aren't that way, just some unfortunately. I have a few lady friends I helped recover as well as some male friends, and to help someone recover feels a whole lot better than charming someone into saying they like you all the time and then saying who knows what about you when you're not in the same room as them, because a person's recovery speaks much louder.
Nobody I'd like to meet should assume that I am just some dead beat guy who just doesn't have the time, patience nor the sensitivity to want to hear everything that is going on in somebody elses' heart and respect or nurture those feelings since I think communication should be strong in even friendships and is something I even find se*y (to those of you who think you have to look a certain way in order to have me want to be your friend).
I like meeting a person who doesn't judge a book by its cover. I may be a guy, but still, I am never someone who would think he is better than someone who don't have as many friends opening up to them because I realize that I am no better than the sinner next door who lives a miserable life and makes himself enemies all the time. I still remember to this very day all the rejection and disorders that God had once delivered me from that I should not take for granted (which is another book I could write). I won't get into details how doctors did a medical test on me when I was an infant and said I would not be normal because of brain damage. Well, at least they're half right (about the normal part). ;)
I think it is such a privilege when a woman trusts a man enough to let him be there for her and listen to how she is feeling without her always thinking he want s** in return for making himself a gentleman to her without first carefully examining his attitude. In fact, it is such an honored privilege to be there for someone that I wouldn't even have the time of day to be thinking about anything else nor what we MAY be doing later down the road (only after we marry), nor would I have the time to compare myself with others because I would be so focused on her and how much I'm allowed to become part of this person's life and would be thankful for that. It is not something that should be taken lightly or for granted. That's why communication is such a big turn on.
I may have a wild side to me, but it is controllable and is never going to stand in the way of my dreams, my goals and my success or what happens before marriage (communication). Those of you who assume that people who don't have a wild side to them need to grow up (which is absolutely totally and ironically not true) don't need to worry at all about my wild side then, but communication is still most important especially if it builds love and can customize how one should act. ;) There are people who are willing to take off their shirts to strangers all the time, revealing everything imaginable that would turn on the wrong people and turn the right people off, because only the right people can understand that there is a feeling of emptiness going on in the other person's heart that causes them to expose their bare skin to the wrong people the way they do. Their inner feelings need to be communicated but unfortunately aren't, which makes them only seen and not heard, which I'm sure they never wanted in the first place. Then when somebody is man enough to say, "I love you and care about you." half the time, they are either laughed at or misunderstood. I would like to meet someone who doesn't see any harm risking if these men are for real or not rather than her not taking any risks at all with guys she knows will look at her in lust. Most of these people constantly seek attention and security from the wrong people, and if they would only just open up to somebody and let him/her care for this person, that is an even better turn on greater than all that skin they are showing.
I think women who can trust real men enough to open up to them and give them a chance to relate to them are hotttt because they are better than just show and silence, especially the people who once didn't care who was taking their pictures off the internet and doing who knows what with them just because they certainly trusted everyone with their bodies and now no longer does anymore because she found herself a man who could listen and not look. Though us men do fall sometimes, it takes the strength of a man to block out lustful habits so there will be enough room in our minds and our hearts to fill with new desire to nurture and care for the hurting. It doesn't mean I am better than the person I am caring for whenever I am looking out for them because they are good enough for me to look out for them and to make myself lower than they. I would need just as much assurance coming from her that she'll let me be there for her as the amount of assurance she'd need from me that I would be there for her. I can't be there for someone who doesn't want the true love I wish to offer, can't fully understand love and runs away from it all the time because so many people have distorted the true meaning of the word love. Sometimes to some people, simple loving words such as "How are you?" comes across as, "I demand you tell me how you're doing or else!" It doesn't mean that I am a time hogging freak when I ask how a person is doing and the response from some of the people is always, "Fine. I'm busy so I can't talk right now." I can completely understand and respect that we live in a busy world, but if there is NEVER communication then there is always room for other things in life that will creep into the friendship. I feel safe to assume that all people who have the time to sign up for myspace and post their pictures or develop their profile certainly have the time to tell a friend how they're doing or can at least write "I don't have time right now." or "I'm not interested in having anything with you. Don't write me anymore." otherwise they wouldn't be on here, but when a guy writes you, please don't leave things open in the air so we guys won't know if you ladies are really interested or not.
A wise friend of mine said, "You can find everything on the internet except peace." I knew exactly what he meant by that and I was starting to believe him because he was referring to how it is so much harder nowadays to get a person to tell you how they're feeling than it is to get this person to do the unthinkable with their bodies, so having said all this, I'd like to conclude by saying that the people I'd like to meet are the people who value the fact that I am there for them enough to feel valued themselves and can relax and be happy just to know that if there is any kind of show I would like to see, I would like her to show me what it is like to be there for someone who doesn't play games and that she can be there for me and keep me posted on how she's doing. I have many friends of all shapes and sizes and that is because I find conversation to be very attractive.
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